I feel so sick.

I can't take it anymore. Yes. I miss your hugs, your kisses. But I know, this is our best outcome. You would be better off without me. I keep telling myself to hang on. But we both know that we're just waiting for each other to say break. I don't want us to end. But I know every story, there's an ending. While walking home, I felt like I've feel your presence everywhere. You're like everywhere. But only the fact is, it isn't real anymore. I've never once felt so helpless. Even when Daniel left. I'm not a good girlfriend and I know it. No matter how much I tried to change my attitude, it never seems enough. Because you're a very good boyfriend. And I know this day is gonna come. It's a pity I'm not celebrating your ORD date with you. But I'm still happy for you. 2 years of torture is over and your torture with me is over. Haha. Every places, seems to be filled with your memories.

我要快乐，但没有你，根本就快乐不起来。不管日子多难熬，我也会熬下去。因为，这是对你最好的选择。我会为你快乐，为你开心。对不起和谢谢，谢谢你，我尝过爱的好。你给我的爱，是无法代替的。对不起，我从来没有做一个女朋友的责任。爱你，所以不想再让你感到那么辛苦了。所以，我放弃了。最不想发生的事还是发生了。没有我，请你好好的。照顾好自己。我能为你做的，只能那么多了。心痛一下子，也好过勉强在一起的自私。愛上你該愛上的女子，全心全意守護她一輩子。到達我到達不了的位置，去完成我未完成的事。分手是兩個人各自的修行。 傷心時，練習逆著風前進。就算沒了緣分不代表沒愛的能力。放手是因為我真的愛過你。

Maybe it was wrong, but upon my life, I will never regret loving him. Back to our lives, separate from each other. And when you see me, when I see you, we'll pretend we don't know one time we were lovers. In every man's life, he will meet a woman who will blow his mind in more ways than one. Someone who is everything he's ever wanted; someone who is unlike any other he has ever met; someone who will love him like he never thought anyone could be loved; someone who is not only his lover, but his best friend as well. Too bad I wasn't that woman. Laughs. Thanks sweetie. Thanks lots (:

I miss you though...

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Temperature check: 37.8. Bah. Why must all stupid things happen at one go? Sian. Time to take care of myself already. Can't rely on you anymore. Tsk. Sore throat, fever, headache, bodyache and breakups. What more could I get. LOL. Facebook guys, stop sending me messages in facebook. I'm irritated -.-