One whisper of your voice and I fade away.

I miss you so.

2010-12-21T17:25:00.005+08:00

Hello sweeties. Please relink me http://clairislee.blogspot.com/ . Thanks lots. For the worst fall I had. I had a worst time standing up. Thanks for those who concern. Friends and everyone. My last post for you.

Did it pass by...Our love
Is it just a heart-breaking memory..
It's turning around...Your heart...Can't I catch it with my tears...

My love I love you, I love you..Are you listening...
My love...Don't forget...Don't erase...Our love..

Can you see my tears. I long for you all day
My heart beat when we kissed but now it's all a memory

My love I love you, I love you...Are you listening
My love Don't forget, Don't erase... our love..

Everyday I long for you. That's how my day goes by. Where are you...
I'm sorry I'm sorry that I can't forget you...
My love come back to me.. Don't leave my side, please...

2010-12-19T22:45:00.002+08:00

Ok. I swear I'm fucking bored now. I can't believe that I actually stay at home for the whole day. I got nothing to do. Fuck it. Alvin is sleeping. Not even a half day entertaining me. NOT BAD.

Hmmmmm

2010-12-19T18:25:00.003+08:00

Hello Sweeties! I'm awake from my sleep. Went to Raymond's house to play one whole night of MAHJONG. I was so so so fatigue! I called for a stop even though I'm winning :p I was really freaking tired. H3h3. I was losing like mad in the first few rounds. But eventually, I won back and won even more! :D Keke. I'm a pro shit in mahjong. I swear I keep on self touch (自摸) . Double double double! Hoho! Alrightys. Goodbye!

PS: Should I buy a new camera now or after new year? My sweetest sweetheart has offered to pay half for me but I don't feel like using his money. I saw one that I really like. If I buy now, I have tons of new photos to capture during Christmas and new year countdown! But I should wait to see if there's any better ones out there right? In such dilemma. Oh man.

PSPS: I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS! :D

I can't let go because you've given me so much to hold on to.

2010-12-18T03:54:00.002+08:00

As soon as I promised myself that I wouldn't fall for you again, I fell. I hate the way you can push me to my limits with the things you do and then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall in love all over again and I forget every little reason I was mad. How can you say that you love me, when the world around you is changing? Well. Alvin is still under provision. So if he can't do what I expected of him, I shall kick him away again :x

The hardest mile I've ever walked was the one away from you.

2010-12-17T14:06:00.003+08:00

Eyebags. Oh man. I'm supposed to help out my mom today but I slept my way through. Damn it. I have already thrown all the shits to her for the past few days. I felt like a unfilial daughter :( Meeting Jason later. Going scapeeeeeeee for icerockz! :D Alvin cried infront of me. I'm just as soft hearted as ever. Oh well! byebye!

I'm bored

2010-12-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

I think I look like SOMEONE in this 2 photos. FML. Above photos are WITHOUT make up, So shut up if I look uglier or don't look alike ok! Afterall, that's what make up are for what! Ok lah. I'm going out already! Kbai!

I miss you

2010-12-16T17:23:00.004+08:00

I should learn to go out without make up. Or at least, without foundation and concealer. Eyeliner and eyelashes doesn't do harm to my face. But foundation does! Damn it. Argh. I just spend money online again! I bought tons of clothes again! That's because I AM GETTING READY FOR CHRISTMAS! Hehe. Sian. Armani Exchange has burn a hole in my pocket :( I'm officially declare BROKE! Hoho! Fml. Why am I so poor? :( Sigh.

Right guy, wrong time.

2010-12-15T01:18:00.002+08:00

Teehee. Short update. I went to watch Hello Strangers. Not bad. Quite lengthy! And I don't like long-winded movies :( Oh well. Thanks for all those who concern about us :D I'm off to bed! Ciaos.

Next time I fall in love, I'm going to look before I take the falling leap.

2010-12-14T17:24:00.002+08:00

What if I said that you never mattered? That I never lost one moment of sleep? What if I crushed all your dreams? Broke all the promises you swore to keep? Tell me how your life would be, if I did what you did to me.

This ending meant next to nothing to him, but I'm not surprised. I just wish he cared a little..but he stopped caring a long time ago.

I never matter to you. Not in a million years. And I have learned to accept that fact. Therefore I let you go (:

Guys tend to take things for granted.

2010-12-13T20:44:00.004+08:00

You've changed. We aren't the same anymore. Did I ask for too much?Is it my fault? I got no mood to blog. Will blog when I'm feeling better. I guess, I meant nothing to you. I have never been so insecure before. Never ever been so helpless. I guess I just have to learn to accept that you aren't the person I once knew and once loved. If i told you this was killing me, would you stop? Pain is never a reason to let go. But it hurts too much I could bear now.

Respect, trust, love

2010-12-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

I won't be the one hurting anymore.
Because I won't be the one who care anymore.
Or I should say, I couldn't be bothered anymore.

I'll blog when I'm back. Or when I'm free. I know I shouldn't neglect my blog! :( But I'm extremely busy! I'm going out soon and I'm late! Gosh. Readers, please continue tagging cause like I said, you're my motivation to blog :D Ok. I sounds like some attention seeker. But hey! Everyone wants to know there are people who view their blog ok! Hahahaha. Ok. I shouldn't crap much because I'm super late now! Ciaos!

Save the best for last

2010-12-10T14:56:00.003+08:00

OUTFIT FOR THE DAY!

I love my leggings like seriously. Damn cool :x I'm like so buey ba. Hahahaha. Went to Ion (alone -.- ) first to shop around and aftermath, Jason and Rachel came to meet me. Walk to Scape and saw so many familiar faces!

First was WenLoong! So long never see him already lah! So we chit chat awhile. And then when we reach IceRockz, I saw YongQin! Hahaha! Such an idiot. And then was Andrea Soh! Her style of calling me will never change. "CLAIRIS LEE" . Hahaha! Aftermath, Alvin drove over to Scape because he felt like drinking IceRockz also -.- So went to played pool after that. Send Rachel home and went to 302 eat. Fat! -.- Home and sleep like a pig. Hahaha. Waiting for Alvin Cheong to end work so we can go play again! Hehe :p Feel like spamming frog leg porridge again :/

2010-12-09T01:20:00.003+08:00

Just met Alvin Cheong :D Went to Timah and had my frog leg porridge. SPAM LIKE CRAZY! Bwhahahahas. Aftermath was pool. I tell you ar! I win Alvin! Hahahahahaha! In pool and 9 balls! Woohoos! Alvin 9 balls always lose me! :p Not gonna meet him tomorrow cause he'll be working. SIAN! I'll be missing him :( Bet he everytime flirt with girls without me knowing! Hahahaha. Kidding. Alvin drive dangerously. But I like the excitement. Later I die without people knowing the reason why. Hahahahaha!

PS: People irritates me by going to Alvin's ex blog and my blog just to ask about this and that. Come on lah. They're past tenses. She's having her blissful love life while I'm happy with mine. Mind your own business please. We both are not at loggerheads with each other. Neither am I be sensitive about her. And lastly, I DON'T HATE HER. If she smiles at me, I'll smile back. So, stop your nonsense.

Universal studio

2010-12-08T14:06:00.012+08:00

Hello stalkers! I'm back. With tons of photos from universal studio. Hehe. Basically Alvin and I had so much fun! Esp rides. Only the mummy ride is fun. The rest like kid only. NO KICK ONE! Super upsetting :( But never mind. At least Dearling tries his best to go all the rides with me and he did (: Ok. Pictures speaks a thousand words. Let them show you what's inside universal studio :D

This is like the best shot in universal studio. Really don't look like it's in Singapore. Haha.

Hehe. And we saw Alvin's ex yesterday :p And I started to make fun of Alvin. LIKE FUNNY ONLY! Haha. Waited for them to leave the arcade so we could play DDR. At first thought they left, so tap one credit. In the end, they went to the toilet. Like sad only :( Cry already lah! Kidding.

So no choice. Played that one credit and went to get Joshua's cake because it's Joshua's birthday! Although I'm still quite pissed that I didn't go to Timah and eat my frog leg porridge. Humfph! Alvin drove me home and I slept like some fucking pig that I didn't even wake up to help my mom. Omg. Clairis, you bad girl :( Oh yeah! I HELP ALVIN TO PUMP OIL TO HIS CAR! HEHE! I'M SO NICE! :D

Kbai!

My new boyfriend

2010-12-04T16:54:00.002+08:00

Presenting to you my newest boyfriend.....

HOHO! Super kewt! Keke. I kinda like his fringe for a guy! Awww man. I'm drooling over him! Damn. Alvin will kill me for this :/ Byebi!

2AM (Y)

2010-12-03T17:38:00.002+08:00

I like 2AM songs! Hehe. But seriously, can you ever differentiate those big big korean groups singers? I always have a problem with that. An example is SNSD. When I see the photos, I'll go FUCK. WHO IS WHO?! No matter how many times people tell me which is which, I always have a problem getting it in my mind. Hahaha.

Keke

2010-12-02T01:54:00.002+08:00

Hey dearling. I'm writing this early dedication for you. Although I have already told everyone that 29th was our 1 year and 3 months, but that was unofficially. 3rd was our officially anniversary. Hehe. It was a date that you choose yourself. You said I have given your birthday another meaning ever since I'm in your life (: Though I might not be your longest, but I'm glad that you dote on me so much. You love me like mad too. Right right right?! Hehe.

The day I met you my life changed. The way you make me feel is too hard to explain. You make me smile in a special way. You make me fall deeper in love everyday. You look in my eyes and make it true. And that's when I realised how there's no one in the world for me but you.

The first time I saw you, I noticed your smile and laughters, the next time we were together, I saw how bright your eyes were, the way you hugged and kissed me were perfect, now each and every time I see you, I see something else about you that makes me love you even more.

And the hard times, they only made us stronger (: Day by day, feelings for you have never fade but they only get stronger. Just like our love (:

Dearling babylove deardear dearie darling baby 宝宝老公, I love you (:

Happy one year and three months (:

2010-11-29T01:40:00.004+08:00

Laughs. Dearling asked me to blog and mocked at some people . So here I am. Gonna be extra mean. So feel free to chit chat again :D

This day is Dearling's chalet date. The date we got to know and flirt with each other. Hahahahaha. Kidding. Well. Love is in the airrrrrrr :D You know, in the first place, I wasn't so pissed with Alvin's ex ( I shall be nice ) till one fine day, I saw her msn chatlog with Alvin. And I started to have this feeling. Nope. Not sensitive. Is the feeling of SCREWING HER UPSIDE DOWN. Yes. People might say, it has been so long. Get over it. But come on guys, you'll definitely remember it. Ahah. And no, not because she chat with Alvin, I felt like screwing her. Is what she told Alvin. Bet people love to know what she said. It goes something like this but it's not identical.

Her: You're with Clairis?
Alvin: Yes.
Her: Well, I think it's a bit RISKY. You know luh.........
Alvin: ( Forgotten what he says )

HAHAHAHA. What a joke. FOR SOMEONE WHO BETRAYED ALVIN HAS ACTUALLY HAVE THE RIGHTS TO SAY THIS?! I laughed and I'm actually quite pissed off in fact. Pissed off is because in my mind, I'm thinking, " Hell. One of a bitch. What are you trying to do here? Breaking us up? How well do you know me? " And yes. If you think I'm making all these up, feel free to ask me for the chatlog because I definitely still have it (: You should be lucky that I didn't call and meet you just to slapped you hard two times. Trust me. I almost did.

And yes. I've smiled to myself when I read it too. Because Dearling trust me, love me and dote me like I'm his small little princess. Dearling dote on me the most! ( He himself say one ar! )

And here I am, mocking her because, I've been through with Dearling for a longer period of time (: Keke. To me, you can break down a temple, a house but never a relationship. Definitely have karma for it. And yes, her karma is getting bullied by me. HOHO! Kidding. After this long time, I've gotten over it. I don't hate her.

And lastly,

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
MY DEAREST ALVIN CHEONG :D

Heart Vacancy

2010-11-28T03:53:00.002+08:00

Keke. New styleeeeeee :D Alrighty. I'm awake at this hour because I AM WAITING FOR MY MAC'S BREAKFAST :x Oh god. Fancy eating at this hour. Clairis, you fat ass >:( Dearling is over at my house watching me blog now. I'm so nice. Didn't neglect my blog for these few days. Hehe. I think I'll ignore my blog soon. Bah. Life has been great :D Never been better :D Except for the fact that Dearling has been FUCKING IRRITATING ME >:( ANNOYING MAX! Haha. Sucker him. But never mind. That's him and I love him (:

CIAOS!

I'm sensitive because you failed to give me confidence

2010-11-27T15:18:00.002+08:00

Face it. I am better than your ex and better than your next. ( Quoted - Anqi )

Heyo! Ain't I a good girl by updating my blog everyday even though I'm extremely lazy to update?! Hehe. I need to build up my readers again man! Lazy max. Don't know what to blog either. Bah. Can I emo? Felt like writing my thoughts all down :( Even the strongest person will have his weakest point. And I'm at my weakest point now. Fuck pms.

So what

2010-11-26T14:06:00.007+08:00

Arh yessssssss. I'm back! I'm trying to update everyday when I'm free. I know how much it's suck to go to a person's blog and see the same old post again. I know the feeling because EVERYTIME I GO ALVIN'S BLOG, IT'S THE SAME OLD POST! Grrrrrr >:( Ok. I'm gonna upload those super overdue photos. They are so overdue that you can see Halloween photos or even NEX'S BIRTHDAY (Which is like a month or 2 months ago? -.- ) . Hahahaha. I still have tons of photos stuck in my folder but I guess I shall just upload all these first. Haha.

Oh oh. LOOK AT MY CANDY CANE NAILS ON THE SECOND PICTURE. KEKE.

LOL. I got no idea why is this in my camera.

Alrighty. I shall end my post here because I almost died when I edited the photos. Bah. Don't you like my thingy on my head? Hahahahahaha!

OH OH! Did I mention one of my clothes came yesterday? Bwhahahahas. I got tons of new clothes that I haven't wore out. Teehee. Still waiting for another few more blogshops to mail out their items to me. Hehehehe. I felt like a shopaholic :(
KBAI!

Dai yin mai

2010-11-26T00:53:00.003+08:00

Dai yin mai, bproht fang waa chan rak ter. Dai yin chan bor ter mai waa kon kon nee rak ter. Ter ja yoo nai yoo shoot faa glai piang hai ter rap roo. Dai yin chan bok ter mai waa kon kon nee rak ter.

I walked into the graveyard once I started believing.
And I should stop believing now.
Not gonna care anymore.
Fuck that shit.
你们都一样.
Ciaos.

Dai yin mai

2010-11-26T00:40:00.001+08:00

Dai yin mai. bproht fang waa chan rak ter. Dai yin chan bor ter mai waa kon kon nee rak ter. Ter ja yoo nai yoo shoot faa glai piang hai ter rap roo. Dai yin chan bok ter mai waa kon kon nee rak ter.

I walked into the graveyard once I started believing. And I should stop believing now.

What you mean to me

2010-11-24T01:33:00.004+08:00

Hello stalkers. I'm back from my awesome holidays. Am too busy with my awesome life as dearling drove me around the whole cause dearling's uncle is not in Singapore so we get to use the car for tons of days. Dearling dote on me so much lah! :D Hehe. Dearling is bathing in my house now. Haha. So I'm using this time when I'm finally free from his evil arms to update a short post. Bwhahahahahs. Just kidding.

I should open a blogshop and sell my clothes soon. MY CLOTHES ARE PILING UP FROM ALL THE SHOPPING I DID! I shopped tons of clothes, accessories and heels today and there is still 3 clothes and dresses coming in in another week's time from various blogshops that I bought. Shit ass. Spend tons of money in just a few hours time. Not the bad! -.- I've changed to formspring cause I think it's easier for me to do replies as I don't update and view my blog as much. So continue to tag and I'll reply whatever questions. Including my blogsongs this time (:

Ciaos

Trust is like a mirror. Once broken, beyond fix.

2010-11-22T12:40:00.003+08:00

Hello. I'm back. And I have been extremely busy with my life so yes. This blog will be neglected. Well, I had an awesome weekend with dearling. Cause we get to use the car till Wednesday so I had dearling to drive me around. Hehe. So we went to Sentosa at night. Romantic much! :p So basically, this will be a very short post as I'll be rushing out to meet dearling after his afternoon shifts. Life has been really great for me although I'm always short of money due to shopping :x But dearling always offer to pay for some of my stuffs. And yes. He paid for our couple shirt at Everlast. Although it seems like extremely late to get couple tees. But that is because Dearling is so small in sized that he can't fit into any of them! So decided to went to shops but no avail. Atlas at Everlast, saw this polo tee that I like ( Yes. Shopping again -.- ) and there's Dearling's size. And I jump up and down. hahahaha. Just kidding.

Be original please -.-

2010-11-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

Hello. I have changed my blog profile description as I have seen TONS OF PEOPLE COPYING it. So goodbye to my sweet quotes to Alvin and here comes a new one (:

This is my old blog description.

Someone onces asked me where I thought heaven was. I pointed to you and said " In his arms. " Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone special to catches your heart. And boy, you're really special to me. 030909. On the 29th August 2009, I never was the same again. Because I know from that moment on, life began with you (:

The ultimate test of a relationship is to argue but still hold hands.

Goodbye to my old quote :(

I prefer my old school looks

2010-11-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

Left hand side is a picture of sec 2 or sec 3 I think. Compared to the right hand side, complexion is so much better on the left hand side. Ok. Not to mention I edited both before but seriously to me, I realised my complexion for sec 2 or 3 is so much better. Make up really spoils your complexion. And in the case, I mean foundation as I have my eyeliner and fake lashes on both pictures. So nowadays, I rather go out with a naked face. But still to town, can't kick the habit. Still will have the urge to make up. I need to really go to something already. Damn it.

In your heart, I don't care who stayed before

2010-11-05T15:16:00.004+08:00

Just changed my playlist. Like finally. I'm off today :D So I'm using this time to blog :D Readers and stalkers are decreasing. Wonder is that a good thing or bad thing. Oh well. Going out to shop shop later :D Working tomorrow :( Sadded. Oh well. Meeting AH AH AH AH AH VIN after I shop finish cause he's working today. Hahaha. Bet I jealous. Today public's holiday. Work today, hourly pay is doubled. Idiot. So I can get $18 per hour today and I actually can't go back. Sian. Like shit only. Don't feel like working already though. Stress much in admin.

One year and two months.

2010-11-03T20:45:00.004+08:00

Hehe. Happy one year and two months my dearling (: I'm finally blogging after 1 whole month. Well. Too busy at work. Finally gotten my pay and clear my debts so now it's my turn to go shopppingggggg! :D Alvin still owes me my LV bag :x Actually, I have never ever really go look at my tattoo. I'm still curious about how does my back looks to people. So it's actually this kind of view. Haha.

Transferred to admin. Hehe. Earn enough money and then I shall go Genting, Taiwan and maybe gold coast and Thailand with dearling. Ok. Maybe it's too early to drool over holiday trips now. But I like my pay. Never thought my first pay that came in is kinda high even though I work just for 2 weeks before I submit my payslip. So I shall be rich like soon! :D

Awesome-ness

2010-10-08T01:17:00.003+08:00

Ok. I look like some typical girls who like to bend and show their nehneh in my first picture. Whatever. It was coincidentally. Never thought my top is so low -.- I'm gonna sleep soon and life has been great. Although waking up early for work is like so tiring, but during our classroom training, I slept through. Ahah. So I get paid for sleeping. There's test tomorrow and I'm not ready yet. I even left my booklet at the training place. How great. But anyhow lah. Multiple choices only. Passing is like 85%. So I have already prepared to fail it cause I have been sleeping. Ahah. Trainers are great. They ask us to write starting work at 8 A.M when we reach at 8.30. So we got OT pay. Cool uh! Have accumulate tons of OT pay. So practically, when my pay comes, I'm rich! Hahahahaha! Ok. Abrupt ends.

&& Look at my cute little sweetieboy. Awwwww! Hehe! Maybe he'll kill me for this :x

One year and one month

2010-10-04T23:54:00.005+08:00

Hello stalkers. Ok. I'm doing up a short posts before I get to bed and start work tomorrow. Last day of enjoyment and then here comes the workload and stress. But whatever. Think of the money and I'll be able to tolerate it :D Alrights. First of all, HAPPY ONE YEAR AND ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY ALVIN CHEONG!

Awww. We have walked hand in hand so far! Soon, I'll be your longest :p Bet someone got to eat her words by telling you it's risky to be with me. Ha! Well. I wasn't expecting to walk this far too. Maybe like 5 days then break with you. Hahahahaha! No lah. Because I never expect you would be the one to tolerate. Even when I can't forget my ex at that point of time when we first got together. You waited for me to got over him patiently. Didn't mind being his substitute at the beginning, was even prepared for me to leave you if he ask me back. You knew at that point of time, I will. And I don't deny that if he asked me back, I would have gone back.

Till that day at prawning with Junwei and co, I teared by thinking that you would leave me one day. That was when I know, feelings for you are getting stronger and stronger. You managed to convince me that love is not a joke day by day. From the start when you said " I love you " to me, and I said you're a joke to you're half a joke and finally, I said " I love you too " to you. Things that I've promised you, are very little. Because I'm not a promise breaker. I wouldn't like to promise you stuffs but I broke it. But what I did promise you was I wouldn't be like your ex to betray you. And nope. Till now I didn't :D We might have huge quarrels, break a few times, but we never failed to get back to each other everytime.

I might not be the best girlfriend in the world, but I would try to be the best girlfriend for you. When you told me I'm the sweetest and best among all your girlfriends, I was delighted. Because I never thought I could be a good girlfriend for anyone. Maybe it's because of attitudes. I have been showing my mood swings all this while but you always tolerate it. But you told me, besides your mood swings, you're the sweetest. H3h3. And baby! Remember what you said ok! You said you won't ignore me again. I don't like the feeling of being ignore. I'm sure you don't either. What you don't like I wouldn't like it either. Regardless of race, language or religion, ok. Just kidding. Regardless of how many quarrels we had, I still love you as much as before. Or maybe even more :p We're gonna build our love strong strong ok? :D Because, if our love is strong, nothing will go wrong :D

ps: I'm lazy to edit pictures. So all pictures aren't addicted except for rotation. So shut your mouth if I look ugly.

Work work work.

2010-10-01T18:24:00.003+08:00

Gonna start work with Dearling, Jason and Joshua soon. And I guess I won't have any time for my blog so I shall update now in case it becomes too dead later. Haha. Feels like going some nice place to slack. Or wear nice nice. I'm always stuck at lot one. But it's alright. I like to play L4D2! Hahahahaha. I clear 3 maps already! Like happy only! :D Ok. I think I shall go pester dearling to go other places tomorrow since it's Saturday. H3h3.

Life (Y)

2010-09-24T15:21:00.004+08:00

Facebook is giving me problems. Whatever. Tagboard is dead so I shall just leave it there. Ok. One word to describe life, AWESOME! And it's gonna get better because dearling, Jason, Joshua and I are gonna work at the same place with a very good pay! And best is, I got dearling and friends with me! How better can life be! Although our shifts may be quite tiring, but, I get to meet Dearling everyday with money. Hahahahaha. Awesome or what! I'll be rich soon. Bebe, Louis vuitton, Miu miu, here I come! No Gucci since I already have my Gucci bag and wallet. So goodbye to Gucci! And dearling promise to bring me to Genting to play :D Just the two of us or with Jason and his girlfriend. Genting is a stepping stone. Feb shall be TAIWAN! :D How great can life be! :D H3h3. I shall wake that pig up. Buh-bye!

In love, either you love, or you don't.

2010-09-23T14:35:00.004+08:00

Short update. I'm updating because, I don't know what to do. Dearling is bathing in my house now so I don't get to bathe till he's out and he's very very slow -.- Well. Hmmmm. I keep on finding stalkers either in fb or in blogs. Whatever shitass problems. And hell no. For someone whom I hate, I don't really like to see her profile. Makes no interest when everything she does disgust me. And to clear something up, the previous post about dearling imitating that slut, was something coincidentally. It was candid. So, I'm not the one who's not getting over it alrights. YOU ARE THE ONE viewing my blog. And obviously, if you're not happy with my posts, feel free to leave and never be back. Because I don't really like to entertain you with my posts either. So shut the fuck up.

Car outs/Ultra camwhore

2010-09-20T20:59:00.017+08:00

Hehe. My iPhone wallpaper. I like this photo a lot! :D

Hello stalkers. Since I got time on my hands, I shall update. Hehe. I slept over at Dearling's house yesterday and got home early as my stomach was hurting like mad. It was so pain that I cried. Damn. So dearling got worriedand sent me home first. He's coming over to me house later to take care of me :D

Alrights. Saturday was car outs with Wyman! :D Dearling drove and Wyman drove too :D Saturday was kinda screwed up. Went to the Promontory @ Marina bay and the carpark was 8 dollars per hour -'- The carpark got free carwash or free service cars isit?! So expensive.

So dearling was pissed off. At first he can't find where is the Promontory and then the carpark was so expensive. Aftermath, we went to Dbg. Cashcard almost not enough money for the ERP as Cashcard wasn't top up thinking that there was enough but then that stupid carpark suck our money like vampire. Luckily left around 3 bucks. And it was enough to go Dbg. And dearling was pissed, again. LOL.

So top up cashcard and watch RESIDENT EVIL! :D Hehe. Even I don't play the game, the movie is real interesting. THUMBS UP! :D So before movie, we saw Raymond at Dbg's arcade. Went to eat with him and I started to camwhore like mad, AGAIN! Hehe.

Dearling trying to learn how a slut take photos? Close your eyes and step like a model. LOL.

Alrights. Then Wyman called and said going Timah for supper and play LAN. And when dearling told me that, I told dearling " Play your lanjiao want or not? " I DON'T PLAY LAN! -.- So we drove and realised there's no oil. And dearling can't find any petrol station. And I called Shin to ask wyman is there any petrol station nearby. And We found shell.

And dearling suddenly " F U C K " and we say SPC opposite shell petrol station. Spc petrol is always the petrol for the car. Can't keep changing oil or else the car would spoilt. So yeah. Dearling was like " Today is really a fucking screwed up day " And I was freak out by his attitude for the whole day :( He was like really emo/pissed/fuck up/attitude or whatever you called that. I was trying so hard to console him lah! Hehe. See dearling! I'm so nice! :x

PRINCESS necklace :D

Went timah ate and I finally gave in and play lan. Played Quake and L4D2. And I straight vomit after that few rounds due to not used to my computer screen turning and turning like I'm in a washing machine like that. LOL.

Hmmm. I guess that should be all. I'm not sure what to blog either. Hahahahaha. And I like my hairrrrrrrrrrrr! :D Hahahahahaha. Sian. Very long never blogshop. I felt like blogshopping but I got no moneyyyyyyyy. Sian. Any job to introduce to me? ): I felt so broke.

-Abrupt ends.-

2010-09-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

Advertorial

2010-09-15T00:56:00.013+08:00

Hi stalkers. Yes. Like my blog title says it all. I'm doing at advertorial for this blogshop. I offered to do it as the blogshop owner is damn nice :D I've ordered my stuffs from her and I have not got it a week after my payment. So I text her and told her about it. And she was damn nice! She told me she'll check the korean side for me and ask me will I need it urgently. If yes, she would find a way for me. This is the first time a blogshop owner has told me this! I was so delighted! Such a nice blogshop owner. She kept on apologising as it was delayed all those. Very very polite. I must be damn lucky to meet such a blogshop owner.

Ok. Enough of the ultra nice blogshop owner. You know at times, where you need to wear those bare back clothes and your bra strap from the back is showing and it's like, fucking ugly?! Yes, This blogshop has the Nubra. Where it is strapless and can push your cleavage :p I ordered one for myself too! Shipping from korea and it was 15 bucks including of free postage! Awww! Damn cheap.

They're selling lenses too. I don't think anyone has heard of I.fairy lenses yet.It's ultra pretty. Make your eyes ultra big. Pity I do not have enough on me. If not I'll order the lenses too! Tons of selections. Even I can't make up my mind. Awwww. I'll order soon! When I go work. H3h3. It's nice to order from such a nice blogshop owner :D Friends who love blogshopping should order from her. Such a nice lady :D I shall show you some stuffs that I personally think it's ultra worth it.

For floral lovers. This is like ultra kewt! Even I like to have one! :D Right hand side is more suitable to some prom or formal night. But still ultra nice lor! I like! :D

Look how big her eyes is! Wowable!

Ultra cool sleeves. K3k3.

Like I said. All these are worth it. It's less than 20 with free postage except for the lenses which is 25 inclusive of free postage too. Find it expensive? No worries. They are too having a promotion now!

Buy 3 pairs and get 5% discount off total bill !!

Buy 5 pairs and get 10% discount off total bill !!

So what are you waiting for? Click here to shop!

P/s: Side note. I like my hair colour :p It's real ok! REAL. I shall blog next time! When I'm more free. Manage to squeeze a little time for blogging. With tons of pictures I promise! :D

-------------Tags replies-------------

veronica: ":( why?"
RE: No why. I don't have the obligations to let you see either.

Amanda: "Sis, cheer up :) I think I'm having nervous breakdown soon too. Hais. But what can we do? Nothing. stay strong. I believe you can do it :) See you soon!"
Re: Thanks lots! Just saw you today (:

candice veldrea: "cheers , sweet friend :)"
RE: Thanks Sweet friend! :D

Guest "happen to passby, wanna comment XD~ppl dun wan invite you then don't FORCE lar, don't thick skin and ask why ."
RE: Haha! Thanks for saying out my thoughts (:

Guest: "how old are u?"
Re: 17 this year (:

Every songs, tells a meaning.

2010-09-09T05:11:00.005+08:00

FML. WHY AM I ALWAYS SO WEAK. FUCK IT. FUCK EVERYTHING. I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO HAVE A MENTAL PROBLEM SOON. I FELT SO PATHETIC. WHY CAN'T I JUST STOP CRYING FOR GOODNESS SAKE. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. SHITTY ASSHOLE. I FELT SO WEAK.

I won't be updating much anymore. Twitter for updates. I've unprivate and unfollow everyone. And the rest of my emotions burdens goes to my diary.

I hate life without you.
I hate the worst breakdown ever.
Worst.
I've never tried crying non-stop for hours.
Never.

Every songs, tells a meaning.

2010-09-09T03:25:00.004+08:00

I wrote in my diary today. And I read my previous entries. And, I broke down immediately. Entries like I'm going to Malaysia and it's valentine's day and I couldn't accompany you cause I'm in Malaysia. I broke down badly. Never once have I felt so helpless. I know this outcome is the best for you. I guess, I've really stick to you like super glue now. I felt so lost without you. But it's alright. I'll adapt to it in no time (:

I feel so sick.

2010-09-09T00:38:00.004+08:00

I can't take it anymore. Yes. I miss your hugs, your kisses. But I know, this is our best outcome. You would be better off without me. I keep telling myself to hang on. But we both know that we're just waiting for each other to say break. I don't want us to end. But I know every story, there's an ending. While walking home, I felt like I've feel your presence everywhere. You're like everywhere. But only the fact is, it isn't real anymore. I've never once felt so helpless. Even when Daniel left. I'm not a good girlfriend and I know it. No matter how much I tried to change my attitude, it never seems enough. Because you're a very good boyfriend. And I know this day is gonna come. It's a pity I'm not celebrating your ORD date with you. But I'm still happy for you. 2 years of torture is over and your torture with me is over. Haha. Every places, seems to be filled with your memories.

我要快乐，但没有你，根本就快乐不起来。不管日子多难熬，我也会熬下去。因为，这是对你最好的选择。我会为你快乐，为你开心。对不起和谢谢，谢谢你，我尝过爱的好。你给我的爱，是无法代替的。对不起，我从来没有做一个女朋友的责任。爱你，所以不想再让你感到那么辛苦了。所以，我放弃了。最不想发生的事还是发生了。没有我，请你好好的。照顾好自己。我能为你做的，只能那么多了。心痛一下子，也好过勉强在一起的自私。愛上你該愛上的女子，全心全意守護她一輩子。到達我到達不了的位置，去完成我未完成的事。分手是兩個人各自的修行。傷心時，練習逆著風前進。就算沒了緣分不代表沒愛的能力。放手是因為我真的愛過你。

Maybe it was wrong, but upon my life, I will never regret loving him. Back to our lives, separate from each other. And when you see me, when I see you, we'll pretend we don't know one time we were lovers. In every man's life, he will meet a woman who will blow his mind in more ways than one. Someone who is everything he's ever wanted; someone who is unlike any other he has ever met; someone who will love him like he never thought anyone could be loved; someone who is not only his lover, but his best friend as well. Too bad I wasn't that woman. Laughs. Thanks sweetie. Thanks lots (:

~~I miss you though...~~

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Temperature check: 37.8. Bah. Why must all stupid things happen at one go? Sian. Time to take care of myself already. Can't rely on you anymore. Tsk. Sore throat, fever, headache, bodyache and breakups. What more could I get. LOL. Facebook guys, stop sending me messages in facebook. I'm irritated -.-

Love is enough to kill one's heart without weapon

2010-09-08T03:55:00.006+08:00

Hi. It's time to reply tags. Wanted to leave my blog dead for some time but I've seen so many questions ask. So I guess I got to reply them in case passerbys, stalkers and strangers gets angry with me. Bah. I created my title quote ok?! If you use them without credit, I'll make sure I'll screw, smack, slap and fuck you upside down.

I love my hairstyle on the right hand side. I found this picture in my camera and found out I've forgotten to transfer it to my lappie. Hahahaha.

Andrea: "hey your shoot picture so sxc. love the bunny ears :D"
Re: LOL. Where got sexy?! -.-
Joey: "Nice photo ! :D And I'm so envy, you are so skinny ^^"
Re: Laughs. Thanks (:

hi: "hi whats your blog song?"
Re: 别再伤口撒盐 by 张惠妹

Xueling: "Helloh , happy 1st year anniversary <: last long with susu <: Your so pretty , envy you <: & you have created a so nice video :D Well , th video was damn nice ! (: heheh ! Pretty !! Re: Laughs. Thanks. I'm not pretty (:

Guest: "whr is the fish spa located at? the one at ur video"
Re: It's at QianHu fish farm.

Eva.L: "Taggies^~^ lastlong and stay chio^~^ Come and tag mine too^~^"
Re: Errs? ...

Happy First year Anniversary!

2010-09-03T14:52:00.004+08:00

H3h3. I've made a video. This shows from the day we started to one year. We've gone through a lot more in the video of course. This is just a summary. Super duper zuper uber rubber bubble love AlvinCheong!

__________Edited_________

Some person call me and call me " mom " Saying she's coming up to my house and ask me for address. LOL. That's funny. Cute like mad. Calling me again now~ -.-

5 more days ♥

2010-08-30T01:55:00.005+08:00

I want my I.fairy contact lenses. I'm so gonna get it. Bah. Cannot stand waiting for blogshop owners replies. It makes me so, hmmm, nervous? Well. My mom cook abalone porridge today. And I ate 2 plates straight. Hehe. With powerveggies fruit juice! Mom went out with my Dad. Calling me after 1-2 hours later asking me whether I want to eat mac or not. Straight away I said yes! Nomnom on kitkat while waiting them to be back. Ate my mac and I felt like a pig straight away -.- It's alright. Kang say I can afford to eat. And 能吃是福! So I think I'm gonna cook mee and eat later :x

Awwwwwww~

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Jeszebel: "Cheer up!"
Reply: Thanks sweet! I like your colour contacts :D

Guest: "How do you get to waterfront woodlands(woodlands waterfront*)? Mind telling me?"
Re: From my house bus stop? LOL.

Guest: "mind telling me the title of your thai song?"
Re: Let's take a break by Waii.

:): "no matter how badly ur heartaches, please eat well. *hugs*"
Re: Thanks sweet. But we're fine now. Not much worries. I can't afford to stop eating. I love to eat :D

fang: "oei!! i iss(miss*) you leh!!"
Re: Oh. You ISS me ar? I don't know leh. Hahahahahaha!

Pb: "What brand of make up u use??"
Re: NicoleMiller, Etude house, Mac. Anywhere that has make up. LOL.

You swore but you left.

2010-08-26T01:23:00.005+08:00

I swear that I'll not have other girls when I have you. I swear I'll only go down on one knee for you, marry you. I swear to be the guy to give me forever and ever. I swear to be the one sleeping besides you. Be the one hardest to wake up and annoy you till you kick me out of bed. I swear to be waiting in church for you, and for your "I do" . I swear to be the one with you walking in the park arguing who loves who more when we're old. I swear to have faith in us cause I super duper zuper uber rubber bubble love you.

Do you remember all these? ):

Are you sure you can make my faith and confidence be back?

2010-08-26T00:51:00.001+08:00

Kawaii neh! I want to get this :D But I still got tons of new dresses still not worn before. Bah. Sadded. But I still feel like getting. Hahahahaha!

Cut your pretence and stop lying.

2010-08-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

Arh. Yes. I failed. I'm blogging again. Bah. I'm surprised many passerbys tagged my blog and show concern. And yes. I appreciate them. Thanks lots again (:

I'm confused. I don't have the courage to get back to you. Helpless nights, sleepless nights. You told me step by step. But I don't know how to. I hate being insecure everytime. I'm afraid you'll leave me again. I got no faith, no trust and no hope in you.

有时候，感情会随着时间，环境而改变。

It's time.

2010-08-22T13:39:00.007+08:00

Forget the times we hug.
Forget the times we kiss.
Forget the times we sang to each other.
Forget the times we went to Kbox and sang duets,
Forget the times we DDR together.
Forget the times when you had no money and still fed me well
Forget the times we listened to the same songs in mrt
Forget the times you hug me to bed. Forget the times I lie on your shoulder.
Forget the times you lie on my shoulder and it tickles me much.
Forget the times you leech my songs.
Forget the times at chalet.
Forget the close shaves at my house.
Forget you...

Remember I've love you truly. Remember I had gave my best shot in this relationship. And lastly, remember to forget you.

We had do whatever it takes to keep this relationship going. Even though things didn't end up well, I'm glad I have you as my boyfriend once. I may not be the best, sweetest, prettiest, good tempered girlfriend but you're definitely my best (: Thanks for everything AlvinCheong. Take good care. We definitely won't meet again (:

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Hello Stalkers. Yes. I'm back to single life. He gave up. Hahahahaha. Ok. This might be my last post here. My body is tired but I'm emotionally so awake. Awww man. I slept at 7++ A.M. And I wake up at 1p.m. Which is so little sleep for me ): No idea what to blog toooooooooo. Waiting for Raymond to wake up so I can pass him some stuffs. H3h3. I'll be super freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee from now onwards. Out anyone? :D

Woodlands Waterfront post.

2010-08-17T01:07:00.022+08:00

Alrights. I've been dragging this post and I got time now. So here are all the waterfront pictures! Added in blogsong too :D It's really a nice place. No matter for photography or what, lighting is good, place is good, it's fun. Dearling and I had a whole lot of fun :D

Esp the playground. Dearling manage to clear his height phobia and went up with meeeeeeee :D H3h3. No choice. I like adventuresssssssssssss. More of height stuffs. Love the excitement. I want to go back gold coast! Amusement park there is the best. Genting is no kick once you sat all the rides n gold coast.

Ok. Enough of amusement parks and yadayadayada. So we bus-ed to Woodlands waterfront as it's a few bus stops away from my house. Ok. Actually not a few. But quite a number. But it's convenient for me though. Cause the bus stop is just like at my block downstairs only. Convenience ttm :D

Trying to learn Edeson :p

Ok. Below are all out zilian instead of the scenery. Well, it's good to take more photos :D

Haha. We're just crapping around in the playground area. Ahah.

Look at the playground and swingssss :D The playground is like so low only ): I want those super high one. I want play exciting games! Tsk!

That's about all! I like the scream photo :D Like super duper zuper uber rubber bubble love it! :D

Ok. That's about all. I'm hungry. Supper again! Aww man. I'll be fat in no time. And I like :D Hope the fats go to my handssssssssss. See my wrist there. Damn. Like bone only. Hate it. And and! I want be pretty ): I always admire those pretty girls and think why ain't I one of them ): Or maybe some more average looking girl. Pfft. Shall go for plastic surgery. LOL! Just kidding.

Hmmm. What should I blog the next time? Any ideas readers/stalkers out there? Speaking of stalkers. I found a few in my fb that's why I private my wall and relationship status to a certain close people whom I know of. So if you can't read my wall or whatever not, please do not think I've blocked you. I've just private it and I didn't invite due to it slipped my mind. That is if I know you or talk to you before. Ok. Done blogging.
Kbai!

2010-08-11T03:00:00.006+08:00

girls are much more than what they seem. they’re more than just the makeup, the clothes, the shoes, the bags, the sunglasses, the outside. they’re more than just whiny bitches. we’re so much more.. too bad some boys can’t understand.

a girl’s life is a bitch itself. on a daily basis we deal with bitches, backstabbers, lies, boyfriends, crushes, exes, appearance, insecurity, bullying and so much more.

everyday we wake up, we have to shower. we have to fix our hair. then, we have to get dressed. we spend hours infront of our mirror for you. making sure we look good. then we have to apply make up. while doing all this, there’s so much to consider.. especially gossipers and guys. if something’s too short, they’ll call us a whore. something’s too long, they’ll call us ugly.

we go through buckets full of ice cream because we’ve had way too many broken hearts. we cry because bitches wanna hate and boyfriends wanna bitch. we can’t complain because we don’t wanna be annoying.

we trust people, then they end up stabbing us in the back. we learn stuff the hard way. every guy out there making a period joke, like are you for real? no. just because you’re being a little bitch and pissing me off doesn’t mean i’m on my period. get over it.

we get hurt multiple times, and keep running back to the same people. we love hard, and hurt hard. we care too much. we’re never understood. we go through so much trouble when you don’t even notice. we listen to songs till five in the morning and fall asleep to it just because it reminds us of you.

we try so hard to impress you, while dealing with all that’s said about us. after everything, we sit our asses down on tumblr and reblog everything that reminds us of you. we spill our guts out to our bestfriends who’ve probably had enough of you.

we go on facebook and we check your profile a million times, and go through all your pictures. even if we have seen them all before. we hear what people say about us, and sometimes we break inside. but no matter what, even after everything, we have to come out strong.

we have to put a big smile on our faces and pretend like everything’s ok. we have to act nice towards the haters, even knowing everything that they said about us. we love even though we know we shouldn’t. and we wait for something that’ll never happen.

but no matter what, we manage to act like everything’s fine, even though everything’s falling apart. that’s a day in a girl’s life. imagine dealing with all that everyday. we’re so much more than what you think. so much more than what we seem.

Got it from Valerie's blog. Find it quite true. We deal with all these almost everyday. No guys would know how a girl's life is unless they experience it. Some girls can be that lucky not to deal with bitches, sluts, backstabbers, insecurity from their own boyfriends etc. But basically, most of the girls are dealing with all these and I'm no exception.

Woodlands waterfront!

2010-08-06T01:35:00.004+08:00

Hello stalkers. First, Happy belated 11th month to my lovely retard tortoise husband. Hehe. Secondly, went woodlands waterfront with AlvinHunnyBunny! :D Have lots of funnnnnn! But I shall blog the pictures next time as there are tons of them and I'm so god damn lazy to upload! So stay tuned. And goodbye! :D

11th month

2010-08-01T01:16:00.005+08:00

I fall in love with you just thinking about you, remembering all the memories we've made: falling in love for the first time, staying in love during the rough times, finding more to love about each other every day. And whenever I think about all the wonderful things that lay ahead of us, I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again.

I got no idea what to blog. But I guess it's like so dead. I don't feel like caring about my blog. Tsk. Bored like mad and since I've got tons of time on my hands, I might as well update. But I can't squeeze anything out of my brain! Sian. On a happier note, 2 more days to my 11th month :D And I like cause this means 1 year is coming :D Since Alvin has so many ex that lasted one year, it's no special to him. Never mind. I shall his first girlfriend to have a 2nd year anniversary with him :D

As you can see, I got no make up on some pictures. Cause I'm too lazy. Nowadays going out without make up cause I like to reach home and take out my contacts only. Convenient ttm. Esp when you reach home late night, you'll just feel like sleeping. And I'm more of a night owl. Go out till midnight then reach home. More lazy to remove them.

I don't even care I look like shit without make up on cause I just plain lazy. Hanbin saw me a few days back and ask me " no make up ar? " I told him is he too long never see me. I nowadays go out without make up. Then he said " Good what. More real. " Hahaha. K. I can't squeeze anymore brain juice to blog. Kbai!

Trust

2010-07-24T16:28:00.005+08:00

I fell deeply in love with you. So deep that regardless what mistakes you made, I'm still willing to give you another chance.

Do bear with my songs now cause I can't upload my songs to fileden. Wanted to upload another one but keep on having error. So I guess you guys got to bear with my cantonese song which is like a very very old song. Hahahaha. But then again, old songs are nice :D

-Edited-

Done with my songs. Heard this song from a movie that I saw on SCV. Think it's quite old already. But then, once I heard the song, I went, awwwww. I like! Hahahahaha. I shall put this song till I find nicer songs. GOODBYE! :D

Shin woo

2010-07-22T04:17:00.005+08:00

Hello stalkers. I might not be blogging as often already. So I might consider closing this space. I shall go to school from now on till they kick me out as I absent like countless times and our grades are counted daily. Oh man. Why RP so hiong one?! I promise myself to go school from next week onwards. Fang fang should be quite the happy :b Fangfang! Let's go crazy shin-woo and Jeremy together! :D

http://piak-yourbuttock.blogspot.com/ :D Will not invite anyone except for close peopleeeeeeeeeee. Cause I think I'll cry father cry mother there. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Celebration for tenth monthsary

2010-07-18T01:31:00.015+08:00

I like that you ramble when you're nervous. I like that I know that you ramble when you're nervous. I like that I still make you nervous :D

Well. Having a car is a real convenient thing (: And I like being the girl that is sitting next to him to tell everyone that he's taken :D I kinda like my hairstyle. H3h3.

Ok. I'm trying very hard to update my blog every single day but I always seems so lazy. Need to think of what to update yadayadayada. I'm so running out of ideas. Ok. This post was supposingly to be up long ago but sweetieboy and I was having some sort of problems so it was delayed.

And yes! It's out celebration for our tenth month! Awww! How time flies! We've been together for 10 months. Real long. I'm getting sick of you sweetieboy! :x Hahaha. Just kidding.

Alrights. We're supposed to go to the science centre but we ended sleeping till late afternoon and science centre closes at 6! Unlucky or what! ): I kinda like the left picture of SweetieBoy even though I can't see my face. Hahahahaha.

So in the end we ended up at Cathay watching Eclispe. Not bad. Better than New Moon though. Slacked and took photos!

And then drove to Geylang for my frog leg porridge! Awesome much! Aww man. Speaking of it just makes me feels so hungry! I want go eat again! I shall pester Alvin for it again :x And maybe this time round I'll go sentosa with SweetieBoy :b

Drove to Marine Barrage and look around. Hahaha.

Went for a pool session till 9 and SweetieBoy drove me home to get some rest as I was beat ttm! Damn tired.

Sweetie! Can we go to Sentosa the next time? *Opens eyes big big*

Alrights. Here comes my little space for my Sweetie Little Boy whom I love so dearly (:

'I love you' means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you--just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you're down--not just when you're fun to be with. 'I love you' means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them--asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me.

The first time I saw you, I noticed your beautiful smile, the next time we were together, I saw how bright your eyes were, I realized your lips were perfect, now each and every time i see you, iI see something else about you that makes me love you even more. Someone once asked me where I thought heaven was. I pointed to you and said, 'In his arms.'"

And yes baby. I always feels that I'm really blessed to be in your arms. Regardless our ups and downs, I'm always glad that we didn't let go of each other eventually. There are times when we are unsure of each other. There are times where I've given you my mood swings and stuffs. But I'm still trying to change. Be a better girlfriend for you is all I wanna do. I want you to know that I've changed for the better and it's all because I love you. Times where I don't wish to hurt you anymore. Times where my attitude is unbearable for you. Times where I really wish that I can be a better girlfriend for you. You said that an attitude is temporary and your love for me is permanent. You said that deep down in your heart, you've already decided that I'm your wife to be. I'm changing for the better. Because for you, I will. So wait for me dearling. Don't promise me forever. Don't promise me that you'll never leave me again. Because deep down I know, I don't need promises. I need you.

Give me a reason to believe in you

2010-07-16T03:14:00.005+08:00

Can you promise me not to leave me again? ): It always hurts to think back of what kind of stupid reason you let me go. It's stupid. Up till now, I still cry endlessly at night thinking that you'll leave me again. I totally broke down. Till now, I'm still not recovering. In fact, I felt so insecure. I really hate to think about this. But I couldn't get this out of my mind. I don't know how to trust you again. I don't know how to believe you that you'll never leave and you mean it this time. It hurts a lot this time.

Insecure.

2010-07-16T03:04:00.001+08:00

I had so much things in my mind now.

I trusted you. I had never trusted anyone before you. I gave you the power to hurt me, and unfortunately, you used that power against me in the worst way possible. I fell to my knees... a broken remembrance of who I once was. And I lay there weak. Open to all of the harshness of the worst without the common comfort of being able to find that piece of mind within ones self. And as time passed, I thanked God that you realized the error in your ways. I do appreciate this protections you provide and your efforts to mend my heart, but I'm afraid it's useless, because I'll never be the same person I was before I met you ever again. You still have that piece of me that you can never return

Alvin's Princess

2010-07-14T17:01:00.003+08:00

I'm lacking of updates. I'm lazy to update.

I remember telling you this.

2010-07-14T02:50:00.001+08:00

I've never made a promise I don't intend to keep, so when I say forever, forever is what I mean. Sweetie, I love being with you. I don't have to work hard to impress anyone. You know all my faults. I can cry in front of you, and you'll just hold me until I stop , or I can laugh so hard I cry and you'll laugh with me until we're both crying.

And it's perfect. How sometimes we don't have to say anything. Just being together is enough. Even though we know everything about each other, we still never run out of things to talk about. You're always there for me, either to hold me or laugh with me. You've been with me through everything, and I can't imagine ever not having you in my life. I love having you in my life.

No guy will make me as happy as you would and no other guy's kisses would be as good as yours and no other guy's hand in mine would send chills up my back. You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. And, my darling, you will always be mine.

As I laid there on your chest, listening to your heart beat, I knew at that moment that I loved you...

2010-07-09T00:27:00.001+08:00

I broke down.

Germany VS Spain

2010-07-08T04:06:00.003+08:00

Alvin came over to my house for stay over and I told him I want to bet world cup and play. And he told me which country I wanted to bet. I told him Spain. But he says Germany confirmed win. So I replied him I want to bet Spain cause I like the country name ( OK. A bit dumb I know ) . In the end didn't bet cause I thought guys would be better in soccer and Alvin totally shaken my confidence. And in the end Spain win. {Insert symbols} WTH! Should have bet man! Shouldn't have listen to Alvin. Wait. I'm not a guai guai girlfriend that would listen to him. So why am I listening to him now?! Wah lao. Money flyyyyyyyyyy ):

Enterprise

2010-07-05T15:17:00.006+08:00

Short update

Yes. I went school today cause Amos psycho-ed me. Hahaha. After two weeks of skipping school, I was so unfamiliar with everything. I was so blur during enterprise's lessons. And just the first day of me going back school, my faci bomb us with a quiz. He tested us exel stuffs (where you used microsoft to calculate stuffs. Like interest etc). I just learn it today while the rest of the class learn it the two weeks that I skipped school. And I actually got full marks! I'm out of the rare four that gotten full marks. H3h3. Feel so smart all of a sudden. Hahahahahaha!

I'll bite you to death.

2010-07-01T00:00:00.004+08:00

Mega cute luh! I went to search for monkeys. Then I realised, it's good that people call you a monkey face. Monkeys are super cute! Anyway, to that guest, I won't bother to entertain you further. Do tag more often and entertained me just to tell me that you're jealous of my life alrights? :D

ps: In any case you're not very very happy with me, you may set a date and time and come and beat me k? I will not entertained any keyboard warriors anymore. Please be a real warrior. Or a real dog. Come bite/slap/beat me if you want. But make sure you bite me to death or I'll be the one doing that.

Mega-edit

2010-06-27T02:28:00.005+08:00

I'm just plain lazy to update. I'll blog when Alvin and I celebrated our upcoming tenth month. This time, it's just our world (: Will update how we celebrate with tons of pictures so girls can be jealous I got such a good boyfriend who will drives me around and give me whatever I want :D But just a simple reminder, he's mine. Not yours! But even if you were to snatch, I think you will till next life also cannot get :D

2010-06-25T15:58:00.001+08:00

I will not be a good girlfriend. I've got a high ego. I'm stubborn. Due to my stubbornness， I'll never be the one to lower my pride. You lower yours just to see me heighten mine. You treat me like a princess and I'll climb over your head. Realistic but never materialistic. Love is a joke and that's what I believe even though I'm in a relationship. I don't believe in forever and love because I've seen much more than I could bear. I don't trust anyone cause this word trust, has been broken and misused because of liars. And yes. I do suck.

Sweetie!

2010-06-22T01:47:00.007+08:00

Sweetest sweetie offered to pay for my online stuffs. So I started shopping and shopping and shopping :x So I got new dresses to wear after a week or so :D

I need a new pairs of heels. I hate it when I got to wear the same old boring heels again and again. I wanted those super high ones. But too bad too sad. Sweetie is rennnnnnnnn :x Inside joke. Haha.

So we went Cathay to watch haiyiak (Karate Kid)! And went to eat Ben&Jerry's. Once in a while must pamper ourselves. Ahah!

As for today,

Aku's

2010-06-19T18:21:00.003+08:00

Yes. we're fine now (: Thanks for all your concern. It's so hard getting this lazy bum out of his bed. Teehee. Out to the movies! I want eat brownie and cup cornnnnnnnn. Super random. Ok. And, thanks YongQin and Fang fang for hearing me rant and giving me the encouragement. Thanks wendy for your super big big concern although I didn't reply. Kinda too down to reply. Hahahahahaha! In any case, Appreciated! (:

Kbai! :D

I SUPER DUPER ZUPER UBER RUBBER BUBBLE LOVE ALVINCHEONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! :D

一字一句都要我承担

2010-06-17T19:00:00.003+08:00

我不知道我的心那么痛。我不知道我的泪无缘无故的留了下来。是我还是我们已经不像从前了？

Fever: 39 degrees.

2010-06-16T20:56:00.003+08:00

Yes yes. My status say it all. Went to the doctor's and found out that I'm having a 39 degrees fever. Super cold now. You're not there for me anymore. It's so heart aching whenever I think of it. Tears would just fall. Time to be independent I guess.

我的心好冷 等着你来疼
而你现在还不懂
冷冷的夜雨中 好想你来拥 
一切只换来你一句保重 
我的心好冷 等着你来疼
恨我自己没有用
不要走
不要这样离开我
恨太多没结果往事重提是折磨
没有心别再拖
好心一早放开我

I agree what Yongqin told me.
I don't want you to leave.
Be it thick-skinned or what.
I just rather feel pain than nothing.

):

2010-06-16T08:29:00.003+08:00

Sick. Having menses and then sick. Great job. Wasn't feeling well since yesterday. I didn't bother. Thought it will go away soon. But never thought it would get more and more serious. Damn it. I saw YongQin yesterday! He called me cause I was seeing Zen playing stepmania.

针刚刺在心上血流已如注
努力学习宽恕, 原谅那错误
不甘我们的爱死在半途
听见你的心还在哭
希望你能觉悟, 我真的领悟
伤口慢慢愈合再被爱包覆

Alone

2010-06-12T02:00:00.004+08:00

K3k3. I went out shopping alone today. Ended up with a shirt, a shorts and a blazer. Spending money again. But it's alright. Cause I haven't been shopping for a long long time.

Arcade life is boring. I never thought of going back to the games ever since I quitted. But I don't really mind cause there's Alvin who never fails to neglect me. Opps. Accompany me I mean. Haha. It's a real simple life. Slack, play games. And joke around. Of course, when there's a big occasion, we'll go celebrate it big big. In this manner, it will be very very unique and worth remembering as we did something that's out of our league. And it doesn't defeat the purpose of the word celebrating as if you do something special everyday, nothing will be special anymore.

It's real nice to have boyfriend with me all the time. Sticking to me like a super glue which makes me feel blissed (: Thinking how we started out together for the first 2 months till it has been nine months now. Time really flies and lots of things has change. Alvin is gonna be 22 soon :x

):

2010-06-09T14:26:00.001+08:00

Insecure. Why do guys always promise you one thing and do another?

Irritating

2010-06-08T16:38:00.005+08:00

It's so irritating when Alvin is sleeping soundly on my bed and I toss and turn on my sister's bed. I barely sleep for 5 hours so I'm getting super touchy today. I hate it when I'm like this. I always throw tamtrums at Alvin. Pfft. I must tolerate. Cannot throw tempers at him. Tolerate!

Short update

2010-06-03T23:39:00.005+08:00

Awww man. I totally regretted getting bangs. Or maybe because I'm just not used to it. But I seriously think I look weird plus weird and still weird! Oh well. Have you ever tried mascara and they just didn't work on your eyelashes? Well. Maybelline new mascara was super great.

Pictures below are taken without fake eyelashes.I used to not have any eyelashes. I mean it's so short that it can't be seen. Look at the difference.

Aww man. Best mascara ever. Nrwzd also mention about this mascara. See how good this mascara is! No more fake lashes when I go out. Woots. I like!

I don't know why are my eyes so god damn big today -.- Maybe because I change to a better brand of eyeliner. Well. It kinda irritates me though. I hate my eyes big. Looks like goldfish. Damn it.

Happy ninth month my dearest boyfriend!

2010-06-02T01:53:00.006+08:00

Hello lovelies (: I'm updating cause it's the 3rd. So it's my ninth month with Alvin Cheong! (: So I got my new shades as I broke my previous one. If you go to Alvin's blog, his dedication picture shows my shades. I miss it though ):

Got my bangsssssssss and tons of makeup stuffs. Spend a bomb today! Like over 60 ): no money already ):

Alrights. I don't get to spend my ninth month with Alvin. But it's alright. We'll have a make up date. Right alvin? Hint hint*

H3h3. And I have plan what to do. But Alvin needs to drive. So I'm not sure whether I should go with it or not. Hmmm. I don't know what to blog. I don't quite like my bangs. Tsk. Post up my bangs pictures soon. Hahaha.

Miss Alvin Bery bery muchy. Alvin Cheong made love a poison and the only antidote for it is him, himself. So maybe there will be one day, I really can't live without him cause I've 中毒太深 . Hahahahah!

iPhone

2010-05-28T15:03:00.005+08:00

Seriously, iPhone is so so so so so convenient! When I'm lazy to switch on my lappie to view my blog or facebook or whatever not, iPhone is the saviour! Cause I can't possibly off my iPhone. So all I have to do is just click on the facebook icon on my iPhone and tada! I'm in facebook! For blogs, I just got to click safari. And tada! I'm in my blog.

Hahahahaha. Seriously, convenience ttm. I thought I would regret getting iPhone as I don't quite like the message style. The button is so small! But it's alright. I got tiny finger tips. Laughs. And when I'm bored, I got tons of games to play! Still can download more games. Bwhahahahahas. Alvin went to get his iPhone today. Sian! Then I can't gek him with my iPhone already!

Awww. Alvin just left my house for his iPhone and I realise I miss him so quickly >: So upsetting. Alvin's leg should be tired now. Cause he keep running through my mind. Haha. Alrighty. Time to go back to my little iPhone baby. Toodles!

Need tons of strawberries now.

2010-05-26T05:08:00.002+08:00

Got my little baby on the 22nd May 2010 which is my precious iPhone :D Teehee. Love it ttm. Wanted to wait for 4G. But then my line is up on the 19th May. So my mom ask me whether I want to get an iPhone. I agreed. Cause I don't know what phone to get either. Ahah.

I should stop hurting you.

Relink!

2010-05-26T03:20:00.002+08:00

Yup. Ive only ask certain people to relink as it is late night now. I shall go off to bed :D